If I Could Choose (D Days)
"Your kidneys are failing,"
Dr. Reddy informed my Jack.
"But we'll do our best
To slow down the
Progress."
For several years Jack
Went through the
Stages: 1,2,3,4,
And now, he's at
Stage 5.
There are decisions to
Make.
Stage 5 means either
Dialysis or death.
Jack knows all about
dialysis.
He faithfully carried it out
For Marylou four
Times a day,
Month after month.
Several days after he
Stopped the procedure,
She died.
Jack's much older than
Marylou was.
He's 85.
And he wants no part of
Dialysis.
"Why would I want to
Prolong my life?
I want to go home."
But his symptoms confuse me.
Is it the Lewy Body Disease?
Is it the kidney failure causing
His confusion?
If I could choose, I would
Hope his kidneys would
Fail before his mind
Is totally gone.
But I can't choose.
I must trust the One Who
Always knows best,
And pray for strength to
Accept His choice.
(And He did take my Jack home
before his mind was totally gone.)