I cling to the familiar.
I long for the olden days when my
Only screen was a T.V.
I've often wished that time would
Stand still so I could savor my grandbabies
Just a bit longer.
But the clock never stops; in fact, each
Year it seems to speed up.
Paradoxically, I welcome change if
It's for the better.
When my status changed from widow to
Wife I was ecstatic.
I wanted my marital bliss to never end.
But it did.
And I found it hard to embrace widowhood
Once again.
I remember when my kids moved out and
My dad moved in.
I remember the bittersweet day that I
Sold my house where I had made a
Million memories.
Settling into a condo was an adjustment.
I've found that each upheaval in my life has
Meant regrouping and adapting once more.
Now, as my age shows and my body slows I'm
Aware that life is rushing by.
I must make peace with change, for I can't
Avoid it.
And from years of practice I've learned that
Peace is possible.
It comes when I lift my open hands upward and
Say, "Here's my life, Father. Weave every detail
According to your perfect plan."
I can rest in Him, for His goodness never
Wavers.
His tender mercies never end.
In my ever changing world He
Stays the same.
"Jesus Christ is the same yesterday today and forever." Hebrews. 13:8
"Even to your old age and gray hairs I am He, I am He who will
sustain you. I have made you and I will carry you. I will sustain
you and I will rescue you." Isaiah 46:4